May was the month the project died, there were just too much going on and other books I wanted to read so I couldn’t commit to the heavy books that were chosed for the book clubs. I read two of the book club books – GMA and Read with Jenna, but the reast didn’t pique my interest at all or were too heavy for the month.
Instead I read most anticipated book of the year and probably most praised book too, along with a fan favorite book, and a few others.
The book club books I read:

Read with Jenna: Chain-gang all-stars by Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah
“๐๐ฉ ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฃ๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ง๐. ๐ผ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ข๐ ๐จ๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ฉ. ๐ผ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐ ๐จ๐ก๐๐ซ๐.
๐’๐ข ๐จ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ฅ๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฃ๐ค ๐ข๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ค๐ ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฅ๐๐๐ .
๐๐ง ๐ง๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ง, ๐ฌ๐๐๐ง๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐. ๐
๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ‘๐๐๐ช๐จ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐จ๐ก๐๐ซ๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ’๐ฉ ๐ข๐๐ ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐จ๐ก๐๐ซ๐. ๐๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ฃ’๐ฉ ๐๐ซ๐๐ง ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ. “
The hype is based on the first quarter and dies a slow and gruesome death right after that.
The first blow to the story was that it was very difficult to get into a reading flow. The writing is choppy and you’re constantly pulled out of the story by notes and commentary. And the second you start to enjoy a piece, a new piece starts and you have to pick up a new thread.
Which leads to the second blow – there are too many first person narrators and it takes you a minute to figure out who is speaking and where the story is. Constantly having to do orientation on the page is exhausting. Not all of these characters are going to be interesting, I personally only liked to follow Thurwar and Staxxx and the couple that watches the games because I thought those two opposing angles were cool.
The third blow is never building the world and keeping the lines between our world and their world too blurry. We are simply thrown into this dystopian reality that is just a slippery slope from our own, but then there’s also historical facts that push this into historical fiction? We are constantly pulled into our reality and pushed back into the book world. Was this a deliberate effect to show how close we are? Probably. Did it work? Not really, it just pulled you out of the story.
The final death blow was the ending. It leaves you with a question mark instead of a resolution you can hang your emotions on. Which I felt was a little bit of a cop-out. You want us to invest in these characters and feel for them, and then you leave us hanging? I was ready to bawl. I wanted an ending. I ask myself if this was another effect used to push us into the dystopia – I don’t know. Again, maybe. But it was anticlimactic to me.
I’m giving it three stars and that’s being generous, and only because I thought the first quarter was five star until it dwindled. โญโญโญ

GMA: The Nigerwife by Vanessa Walters
One line review: ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐ข๐ซ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐๐ช๐ฎ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ฐ๐ข๐๐ญ.
๐ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ซ๐ข๐๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฆ๐ข๐๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐จ๐๐๐๐ซ.
Nicole, the nigerwife of Tonye has disappeared and her estranged aunt goes to Nigeria to find out what happened.
โ๐๐๐ ๐ก๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐ฅ๐๐ค๐ฉ๐ค ๐ค๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐ก๐ ๐จ๐๐ค๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐ฃ ๐๐ฃ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐๐, ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ง๐๐จ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐. ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐. ๐๐๐ฃ ๐๐๐ก๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ง ๐๐ง๐ข๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐จ๐ข๐๐ก๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐.โ
Itโs clear auntie Claudine doesnโt trust Tonye, but she also doesnโt understand quite how the culture works, so sheโs trying to work a system she doesnโt understand. This leads to a lot of dead ends and wrongful assumptions. Some of these worked for me, others didnโt.
I liked the parts of the cultural isolation, both for Nicole and Claudine, but the generational trauma that is touched upon was just confusing to me and didnโt really work. This separate narrative pulled me out of the story for no reason. These elements also felt forced in the story where they didnโt really belong.
Also aside from the mystery and cultural aspects we have friendship, relationship and marital issues. Itโs a lot! Maybe the book just tries to do too much?
At the same time, it does very little in the middle, so huge chunks of this book was kinda boring to get through.
I like the idea, and the writing is good, so I wish it would have been edited better to lay out the story, cause I actually think itโs pretty good.
Iโm not sure I would have landed in this ending, haha, but Iโll take it as comic relief for the otherwise serious tone it is played in. โญโญโญ
The books I read that were not book club picks:

Yellowface by R.F. Kuang
Probably the most anticipated book of the year and the most celebrated. I have seen nothing but rave reviews on this one, so mine is just one in the long line of admirers. So all I can say is:
DRINK THE KOOL-AID, IT TASTES SO SWEET!!!
An instant all time favorite! Just read the reviews, they all say the same :itโs meta, merciless and magnificent!
This is my first RFK book, and I know itโs outside her regular fantasy genre, but with writing as good as this, Iโm running to the bookstore to buy all her books!
I just have one comment: read it now! Itโs full of references that set it to the times, so this is one best read fresh! (I think, but I might re-read at a later time too actually, cause it was just that good!)
If you haven’t heard anything about it: It is about an author stealing a manuscript from her friend after she dies and passes it as her own. The only problem being that the story is based on chinese history and she is not chinese. Yellowface ensues. Racism is radiating from every page! It’s brutal and raw and REAL! And if you’re familiar with Kuang, her history and her work, you’ll be able to draw straight lines from her real life to this one. She’s said so herself, it’s all her experiences from the publishing industry in nice yellow packaging!
Dare I say this is my favorite of the year already? Yes! Absolutely! โญโญโญโญโญ

The Poppy war by R.F. Kuang
This book is divided into 3 parts and I felt different about each of the parts.
Part 1: was strong to me, I got a good introduction to the characters, history and system. She spends this time at the military academy learning and we’re learning alongside with her. Easy to read and it flowed well towards Rinโs goals. It was exciting to see where it was all headed and it had me engaged. Solid 5 stars!
Part 2: this is where I fell off the train. And also where Iโve seen the most people DNF. And I get it. I lost focus and interest in what was going on. I mixed up the characters and started to skim parts. (Which always bites me in the ass later.)
Part 3: The trigger warnings that should come with this book! Wow! The details, so brutal and grotesque. But as I understand this is based on real history. And I sometimes think what humans are capable of is more disturbing than anything you can make up!
Chapter 21-26 had my jaw drop, brow frown and spine ache several times. I thought this was just so brilliant! And I regret skimming the parts that I did (knew it!) because I missed the connection to a few of the side characters here. But the ending set it up well for book 2!
Full disclosure: I want to love these books more than I do, and thatโs because fantasy is not my genre, even though I want it to be. I rarely enjoy it, but I really really want to. Itโs a curse really. So Iโm giving it 4 stars as a whole, even though Iโm sure it deserves 5, my enjoyment wasnโt all there. But I will say this, it is probably the most well reasearched book I have ever read with certain parts taken straight out of the history books – I learned of this later. โญโญโญโญ

The love hypothesis by Ali Hazelwood
I’m rounding up on stars because the banter is really well done and it saved it for me. The rest was mediocre at best, a very thin plot, repetitive writing, very little character development, flat secondary characters and a heroine that constantly second guesses and contradicts herself.
Our protagonist is the weakest character in this book, she hates professor Adam Carlson even though heโs been nothing but nice to her. She falls in love with him and proceeds to push him away! Makes sense? No. She also obsesses a lot, and repeats the same sentences to herself over and over. Which is more than a little annoying.
Adam on the other hand is the sturdy and straightforward guy we all wish for! Prince Charming! And heโs supposed to the the grumpy here in this grumpy X sunshine trope? I donโt buy it.
What saved the book was that the antagonist and bad guy is very believable and the author has said that she writes about the power balance and abuses in academia. This part drove the book deeper for me. I wish there was more of this and less of the repetitive obsessing over a “jerk with nice abs” when he’s actually a nice guy with all the fixings.
All in all it was okay, a cute romcom with witty banter. Easy to read, I got what I came for. โญโญโญโญ

Everyone in this room will someday be dead by Emily Austin
Calling all people pleasing, depressed and anxious individuals who want to feel seen!
Itโs a specific target audience that I feel I fit right into and it hits the mark so effectively. For me, I could relate so much to the first and second part, and then it kinda went off the rails.
It spirals a little out of control and I had a hard time following along, but it picked up nicely again towards the end.
I loved how everything got out of control and everything got loud and weird and overwhelming with choppy bits, and then it slowed down to a manageable pace again. It felt like the storyline followed five stages of going absolutely vertical before leveling again.
I also love how it shows how exhausting mental issues can be, and at the same time how high functioning it is possible to be. Because letโs be honest, a bunch of us are out there looking perfectly fine on the outside, holding jobs, grocery shopping, and doing our activities. But inside, weโre also on fire with insecurities, doubt, black holes and numbness.
I think itโs a very difficult feeling to explain, but I think this book did it very well.
Itโs stressful. Weโre ok. But weโre not. Hope this helps! โญโญโญโญ
